...fuck

So the holiday's over today. Back to school tomorrow. *sigh* Not excited about it. And I didn't get any sleep last night..... I don't really know why. I went to bed before midnight and then I kept rolling around the bed until 5am. I'm _really_ tired and annoyed. The only good thing that I see in this day is that yet again the sun is shining and it looks like summer is almost here.

I'm almost done watching D.Gray-man. Only a few episodes left. I've also read the manga to as far as it has been continued now. I'm praying that they'll continue the anime, but I have my doupts. Some have said they've started already making it, but they are just not sure when the first episode will come out in Japan. Some say that there's not going to be an anime at all; that the whole series is finished and only the manga will continue. I hope so bad that the anime would continue. I like watching anime more than reading manga, so it would be nice to see (WARNING SPOILER!!!) or rather cool to see Allen as a Noah and Tyki Mikk with his long hair ♥ Aaaand all the other new Noahs. But then I'm sure I'll cry when all those sad things happen to Kanda and Alma and also when they show Kanda's past.(END OF SPOILER!!!)

There's this one song that's stuck in my head.... "I can't decide" by Scissor Sisters. The song makes my day, really. Mostly because there's a person in my mind when I listen to the song. ♥♥♥ ^^ Ah, I wish him the best, _not_.



Lyrics to the song ♥:

It's not easy having yourself a good time
Greasing up those bets and betters
Watching out they don't four-letter
Fuck and kiss you both at the same time
Smells-like something I've forgotten
Curled up died and now it's rotten

I'm not a gangster tonight
Don't want to be a bad guy
I'm just a loner baby
And now you're gotten in my way

I can't decide
Whether you should live or die
Oh, you'll probably go to heaven
Please don't hang your head and cry
No wonder why
My heart feels dead inside
It's cold and hard and petrified
Lock the doors and close the blinds
We're going for a ride

It's a bitch convincing people to like you
If I stop now call me a quitter
If lives were cats you'd be a litter
Pleasing everyone isn't like you
Dancing jigs until I'm crippled
Slug ten drinks I won't get pickled

I've got to hand it to you
You've played by all the same rules
It takes the truth to fool me

And now you've made me angry

I can't decide
Whether you should live or die
Oh, you'll probably go to heaven
Please don't hang your head and cry
No wonder why
My heart feels dead inside
It's cold and hard and petrified
Lock the doors and close the blinds
We're going for a ride

Oh I could throw you in the lake
Or feed you poisoned birthday cake
I wont deny I'm gonna miss you when you're gone
Oh I could bury you alive
But you might crawl out with a knife
And kill me when I'm sleeping
That's why

I can't decide
Whether you should live or die
Oh, you'll probably go to heaven
Please don't hang your head and cry
No wonder why
My heart feels dead inside
It's cold and hard and petrified
Lock the doors and close the blinds
We're going for a ride



And the song makes me feel goosd too. Even though the lyrics are a bit, well... dark, I love it how the song itself is so happy~ ♥